Being Present

For starters: as most of you know, being a dance major is highly physically demanding. Anyone who went to high school with me knows I’m good at taking shortcuts and BSing just enough to still get straight A’s. Unfortunately, that is not possible as a dance major. My days of playing tetris and listening to grooveshark in class rather than listening to my anatomy lecture are over. If none of this is making sense, let me sum it all up in one sentence: I have an extremely difficult time staying present mentally and physically. While I am dancing, I am usually thinking about how stressful it is that I mess up the movements. I am hardly present, feeling the choreography. During sit-down classes, I am always counting down time until the class ends or I talk to myself saying “only three weeks til summer!”. Now that I am aware that I have a problem, I need to work on fixing it. It is definitely not going to be easy, though. Throughout this semester, I have doubted God’s plan for me to be a dance major dozens of times. I have considered quitting, and I have thought of every possible alternative. But also, I have done something I have never done in my entire career as a student. I have not missed one class. Even through my doubts, God has shown purpose for me being here at ASU as a dance major. He is teaching me to give my 100% to everything I do, not just pick and choose what I want to be dedicated to. My goal for next semester is to not only be present for attendance purposes, but to be present in my studies and give everything I do 100% of my attention. One of my colleagues Shelby Keefe has a tattoo on her ankle that says “Be Present.” I want to put that into practice in all aspects of my life, and this semester marks the beginning of that journey for me. 




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